We attended part 2 of an Attachment Webinar through the AFABC last night. The webinars are a bit hard to concentrate on because we've done so much research already. They are mostly very basic information, but have some pearls of wisdom here and there as well. I think that, even though we don't feel like we are getting much out of them, we will keep taking them. I've read on other miscellaneous blogs that part of the homestudy is showing that you've been doing your research so you aren't going into the process blind. We'll be able to provide quite a list of books/courses/websites/interviews that we've read/attended/sought out, by the time we get to the homestudy process. I'm pretty sure our social worker is sick of us, but she can deal with it and help us through the process, or she can find us a new worker - Either way is fine by me!
We have three more months until they offer another AEP course. We are not guaranteed a spot in the course either - there are no dates announced, and there is very little information on the internet about what to expect.
Another thing on my mind lately - I want to tell everyone on earth that we're looking to adopt. I want to do this, so that I can connect with other people that have gone through (or even just started) the adoption process. I want to talk to people who know/understand what we're going through. Plus it's pretty much the main thing on my mind, so I really just want to be able to talk about it when my mind goes there during a regular conversation. I'm not really good with the internal filter, and having to watch the topic of conversation so closely is difficult. I've had some particularly difficult conversations that touch the very topic of adoption lately (with our friends who are taking custody of their nephew through the ministry, and with my aunt who was a reference for a friend who was adopting). It's hard not to give away to much information about the process. Those who aren't looking to adopt don't usually know about what is involved, so I have to pretend to be less informed. Caleb really isn't ready to go public with the news yet, so I'm being patient (impatiently ;).
I had an appointment with a gynecologist yesterday. It was a referral from back in October when we lost our baby that we decided to keep, so that we could ask some questions, and make sure things are healthy before we completely walk away from that route. The doctor was quite good. He was very professional. He explained some things about PCOS (poly cystic ovaries syndrome...my diagnosis) that my previous doctor had never mentioned. It was nice to have a bit more information, so that I can try to be more healthy - If we do end up with 5 kids (yup, we're leaning toward a sibling group of 4) I want to be as healthy as possible, so they don't suffer more losses that could have been prevented. Something that we asked about was if a total hysterectomy would be an alternative solution to the PCOS problems in the future. The doctor replied with shock that I was only 28, and why on earth would I even consider that? When we told him we were considering a sibling group of 4 (besides our birth son who was with us) we received our first critical looks. It was a bit entertaining actually. Some of the information he gave us that I wasn't actually aware of before though was that ladies with PCOS are at higher risk of miscarriage - this makes me even more wary of ever trying a pregnancy again, I really don't know if that is something I could handle emotionally ever again. Another thing we discussed is what the lack of progesterone in my body actually does - basically the lining that builds in the uterus is supposed to go away once a month (duh, a period), and that progesterone is the thing that causes this. My body doesn't produce progesterone at the right levels, so the lining just builds and builds and builds. This build up over time can actually lead to uterine cancer. If the Doc was trying to convince me NOT to get a hysterectomy one day, this was not the information he should have provided (haha). As crazy as I feel using her as an example, Angelina Jolie did something similar to a hysterectomy to prevent the possibility of cancer, her double mastectomy is no different in my opinion, and I absolutely applaud her decision. With the number of children that rely on her, how could she choose any different?
Anyway, there is my rambling thoughts for the day.
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